I would say I spent a good chunk of yesterday crying. And yes I promised I would post positive things on this blog but I don't think God intended my blood type would match my personality (which is B negative by the way).
The crying of course is from missing Zac but it also has to associate with change. I've talked and messaged Zac just about every day more than twenty times, and you know what they say about doing something more than twenty times? It becomes a habit, and having something to look forward to every day getting put on hold for a while is rough. Thankfully friends and family have reached out and comforted me, letting me know that everything will be okay! The million dollar question is what am I going to do to occupy myself for the next two years? Well I do have the rest of my senior year of high school to worry about, and graduating has been something I've yearned since junior high.
I am currently enrolled in the digital media and design program at my local applied technology collage, called the DATC. Going into animation and working for Pixar or Nickelodeon has always been a dream of mine ever since I was a kid, and as a kid I would spend and unhealthy amount of time in front of the TV watching cartoons. Yes it has affected my eye sight but bright LED light is going to deteriorate this generations vision for decades and decades to come, and it doesn't make it any better when I plan on majoring in something that requires sitting in front of a computer screen all day.
Anyway, yesterday I got a call from the amusement park I work at just about every summer saying I got a position as supervisor. If any of you know me, where I work, a lot of the supervisor there are already 16 so it's not too much of a big deal. But hey, I was told that having a management-like position at work looks good on a college application or resume, plus I do get paid better then I did as a regular employee, but there are a lot more hours I have to work in the supervisor position sooooo that's gonna be..... tiring. But hey as long as I'm getting paid! Right? That's a plus!
After I graduate I will be applying to LDS buisness college, because that is the one of the only colleges that accpets DATC credits, plus if I did a year course at LDS BC I will already have two years under my belt and after I that I will work on getting a Bachelor's degree in animation at BYU. Honestly BYU wasn't one of my top choices in the first place, I kind of wanted to go to a college that is south of Utah so I can take a break from northern Utah's Bipolar weather, but this plan seems like a better fit for me. My parents do want me to go to an LDS friendly college so also of the factors that got me to deciding LDS BC and BYU, plus BYU has a great animation program, from what I have heard. But who knows? Maybe something will occur that will cause a change of plans after high school, which could be good or bad. We'll never know!
Distracting my thoughts of missing Zac on goals has so far helped a lot. Am I still going to have a moment where I miss him like crazy? Yes. And will he? Of course! I'm so glad I can email Zac and send him letters, so it's not like communication is completely cut off between the two of us, and with Christmas break just being next week, I completely forgot about getting gifts for friends and family! Gotta get that checked off the list of the many things I need so accomplish.
And besides planing for the future Zac gave me a list of things I should do before he gets back, a lot of them consist of binge watching movies, mainly Harry Potter and the Marvel movies (in order) which don't kill me I didn't even think there would be an order to watching all the Marvel movies, but nope in order for me to understand what in the hoo-ha is going on, I gotta watch them in order. It amazes me hows fandoms are so obsessed over a series. Heck Star Wars might as well be it's own religion! There are books about each individual planet, creature, and galaxy down to a science. George Lucas is one heck of a cleaver creative maniac. But it's people like Lucas that inspire to draw an create a world of my own.
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